It’s enough to say it is possible.
When I started this blog nearly 2 years ago, it was to track my own experiment on myself to see if I could get better from a condition that conventional medicine couldn’t solve for me. Most of the studies, research and expert opinion I had access to said it was not possible…most of what I felt and read elsewhere said it just might be. And I have been well enough for long enough now to say – it really is possible!
The stated aims I gave my self-healing journey were to be healthy, happy, symptom and medicine free – and without too much of a fan-fare I can now say that currently these targets are complete. I am healthy, I am happy and I am symptom and medication free! It is a wonderful feeling to be in this place – I have broken free of the constrictions that ulcerative colitis had on my life. I feel ready now to move into the next phase with a stronger, healthier body and a more aware and conscious mind.
I know very well that these targets are not fixed or ever fully completable. They are transient in nature, always in flux and totally subjective. My daily life is still based on the concept that I have colitis. Decisions about what to eat and drink, when to sleep, how much to exercise, when to rest etc… are all based on preserving the health that I have regained. Yet I don’t feel these decisions are limiting. Quite the opposite. It is these decisions that have dragged me out of a solitary life spent almost entirely on the loo and back into the world. These decisions are liberating.
Only I can know what is best for me and that may not be what everyone else is doing. I think this is an important point. Sceptics may say that IBD is a very changeable condition, that people move in and out of remission for unknown reasons and that I fit very well into this pattern. Much of the medical research may suggests this and so I understand why professionals would adopt this stance. Yet, the research was not done on me. I am not like everyone else – just like everyone else is not like everyone else. Research and experience can help to make informed decisions on what is likely to occur for certain people in certain situations. However, it can never tell what is going to occur for me. Deep down, I know that it has been the work that I have done on myself that has made the difference. I have not made a spontaneous recovery, my remission did not occur short term. I have experienced a slow and gradual change in condition the longer I stuck to the idea that I could heal in a natural way and my health status has tracked almost exactly to the day that I started my own self healing journey.
In following posts, I want to unpick everything that I have done over the last 2 years to bring myself back into good health and use this to inform how I want to continue the process. As I notice with almost everything in life, it is a combination of factors that come together to bring about a result. Some aspects may be more significant than others, but is the accumulation that ultimately has made the difference.
The experiment I have undertaken relates only to me. I only ever write about what I have done and how it pertains to me. I do this because I can not say that what I have done will have the same effect for you or for someone else. My experience is written as a record. It is working for me and the only lesson that can be learnt is this: IT IS POSSIBLE.